Christmas Traditions...
December is one of my favorite months... it is full of traditions. Christmas carols, cookies, tamales, and lots of family and friends. This weekend was my sweet husband and I spent time in our home, Eddy installing our new sink, which is gorgeous!!, and myself making tamales. We ended the weekend decorating our tree and enjoy time with each other. We also chatted with my father in law and brother in law....All in all, it was a wonderful weekend, and I feel so blessed. At times I am disappointed with myself for feeling the loss that still overwhelms me, the loss of our babe... It seems that Christmas is just more complete with a baby now, especially since we lost ours. We are trying again, and I just pray that soon we will have that wonderful feeling again.... and God willing, by next Christmas we will have our baby.
Garage Cleaning....
This weekend was spent cleaning out the garage. When I moved to Az I had 2 weeks, that was all, 2 weeks to move the most amazing years of my life. I guess that the reason I believe they were the most amazing has to do with me and growing up. I really believe I became a person of myself in those years. I learned things about myself that I never knew. I also had the most amazing friends. Women that I truly believe have left handprints in my life never to be removed, and in fact helped me become the very woman I am today... well, the good parts. LOL! So, back on track... In two weeks I had to pick up the roots that ran deep, and for three years I have allowed all those roots to set in my garage packed away in boxes. This was the weekend of unpacking. I laughed, I cried, I felt the sharp pain of memories. I haven't gone thru the thousands o of pictures yet, I am not quite sure I am ready for that, but I started.
All in high hopes of the future. A future that I pray will start soon.
Since moving to Az in November 2004 I have had the role of a fiance, now a wife, and God willing
soon a mommy. We are praying it won't be too long, but we are just starting to try. We miscarried in February this year. More on that later, too much heart wrenching for now.
Anyhow, we would love to start the next step, parenthood, increasing our family of two. We spent our year anniversary in Miami and in the Bahamas. Though we are nervous, we are excited about this next journey. Month one of trying, should know in the next two weeks, but I wouldn't mind waiting another 2 months.....
